My failure "update"

I have been delaying this post for some time in hopes that things would change and I wouldn't sound so negative when writing this out. Well it seems that delaying it didn't help. I haven't lost any weight. I haven't been dedicated to working out. Life has taken me once again away from my selfish course. <---see that's how I justify my lack of follow through I'm not sure why I've stopped. I have a million and one excuses, but are they reasonable? some....some are just a bunch of bullshit and I know it. Just for fun, here are a few: Superbowl BQQ, leftover meat from the BBQ (cant toss things out when $ is tight!...right?) by the way we had burgers and hot dogs for two days..AFTER the Superbowl and the BAKING! got a hold of me...(sings)oooh it really got a hooooold of meeeeee!!!!!! I'll get to the baking later though.

It had been two weeks going on 3-ish and I had lost 5 el-bees. It all went to the crapper over a weekend. I was terrified of getting back on the WiiFit, I didn't want to know how bad I had done over the course of just a few days. Eventually I mustered up the courage and stepped on, I knew what was coming my way I felt it and my pants did too. My body felt gross, it still does. It didn't help that my two year old has gotten so use to my weigh ins that he now knows how to say and when to say "That's obese!" *face palm*

I'm having a hell of a hard time getting that motivation back, I've gone back to my own post to see if I could find some inspiration-no deal. I'm lost again. Tried to ask the hubby for some motivation but the poor thing is so tired from work I could see my words go in his ear and out the other. I could have thrown a bitch fit but if I was at work 12 + hours a day installing in the hot sun and forgot my wallet at home so I couldn't get something to eat/drink, I'd be out of it too.

As I type this out its been almost a week without a single jog. I don't feel healthy, I feel lazy, and I think I'm expanding... sideways. AHH the story of my life! All I want to do is sleep....and BAKE. Holy Yummy cakes batman! I have come across a TON of baking blogs and I am ever so anxious to try out the recipes and make them my own! I want to make a heart shape cake box and red velvet balls, and cake-lolly pops! Check out what hasn't been helping me keep the pounds off! YUM but be warned! If you stare at them long enough you might just gain a pound!


Its only been a day or two and something really exciting has happened. I'll blog about that later! but its great! And wipe that drool off your face! aren't those red velvet balls amazing?